The Night Of Solitude

All of us face a time in our life when we feel all alone - when we feel that we are being subject to suffering which no one else has faced. That time seems to be ceaseless. NO words can define the trauma of that time. Only the person who faces such a time knows what all he/she goes through. Fear, Insecurity, Despair, Frustration, Helplessness are just a few words to define such a situation.

Sabke mann mein bas ek hi baat aati hai, "Mere saath aisa kyu hua? Maine kisi ka kya bigada tha jo mujhe ye sab dekhna pada?" But the irony of the situation is that there is no one to answer this question in the night of Solitude.

All that I want to communicate thru this blog is that people you are not the only ones to face this tragedy of life. All of us have our own share of sorrows & happiness. But the only thing is that we get so lost in our Solitude that we feel that we are the only one.

I have also had my own share of solitude and I believe that this solitude is just like a night. Not the normal one. When I say normal I mean the cozy nights when we have a sound sleep. The Nights of Solitude are those nights in which we have a bed to sleep, we are tired as well, we are dying to sleep - but ironically this Solitude never lets us sleep. We simply keep rolling in our bed in the lap of our fear waiting impatiently for the night of Solitude to get over.

And believe me when this night gets over nature greets you with a Beautiful Morning. A Morning that makes you feel "jo hua achey ke liye hua" - a Morning that is made for you - a Morning that you rightly deserve.

This prose - cum - poem was written by me in one of my nights of solitude :)

OH THIS SOLITUDE!

In the darkness of this night,
In it’s quititude,
I realize how alone I am,
That there is no one with whom I can talk and say
What my heart really feels.
In the stillness of this night I realize the emptiness lurking in my heart.
There is so much in my heart which I want to speak,
Pour out with a great gush,
But this solitude reminds me that you are alone,
All alone…
The liveliness of the day has gone, passed away,
And this cloudy night without moon, without stars reminds me that there are no more of your mother’s caresses for you, no more of your father’s pampering, brother’s teasing, friend’s gossiping, no more…. nothing but your solitude.
Solitude- the very word haunts me,
It scares me.
I feel like running away from it,
Run to someone who’ll fill this emptiness of my heart.
But again I know that I am alone.
All have left me, all my friends.
The void inside me is so deep that I can’t even pray to my god,
I can’t concentrate,
Because all the time I am aware that I am alone
Alone, yes alone I’ll fight my loneliness,
Only if I get some strength
Away, away you night pass away,
Come, come you beautiful morning come my way,
Enter my life, guide me and tell me that my future is secure
Take away all my fears that have come with the coming of this night and its solitude….
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My night of Solitude did end and I was embraced by a Beautiful Morning and I am sure that your nights of solitude will end too. I wish that God gives you the strength to face your night of Solitude and He grants you the patience to wait for the Beautiful Morning that you rightly deserve.
May God Bless All Of You!!!
:)